The weather is getting chillier now and fall is definately here. I love the crisp smell that comes into the air and the subtle colors that are changing as the days go by. Soon it will be Halloween, then Thanksgiving and before you know it it will be Christmas and then New Years! I was told many times as I was growing up that the older you get the faster time goes by and that you shouldn't wish your life away.

I remember when I was ten I wished that I was sixteen. When I was sixteen I wished that I was eightteen and the list goes on and on. I guess we are lucky that most wishes don't come true. You have heard the old saying be careful what you wish for because you just might get it? Well, so far none of the wishes that I have made have come true. NONE!! I guess I have been wishing for the wrong things. That's life. You take what you get and you should be happy with it.

The one regret that I have is that I never went to college. When I was younger I didn't know about all the opportunities that were out there and the grants and student loans that were available. Now that I am in my fifties I feel like it is to late for me to go back to school. I have always wanted to be a writer and I have even written a manuscript. I think I have mentioned that before. I know there are a lot of things that I don't know, and should, about writing and getting published. I guess I just wasn't ambitious enough to fight for what I really wanted and now I don't have the energy to fight, nor the motivation. It has been lost in the miasma of my life and right now I can't see anything in the future for me except more of the same. I do sound morose, don't I? Sorry.

I have been working all of this overtime at work and I still can't seem to get ahead financially. The more money I make it seems that there are more people out there with their hands out demanding it.

One last wish: I wish I could win the lottery jackpot!!!

What can I say, old habbits die hard.

Later